i care

My tita heidi had lunch with us today. She just came home from a trip in Malaysia.. she was telling us about her stay there, describing Malaysia in all its glory.. she was describing this government facility, which according to her sources was suppose to be Marcos idea.. she was telling us stories about how pinays there are known as either prostitutes or domestic helpers.. malaysia, which was during marcos time was poorer than the Philippines, now is eons away from us... My dad commented that there's no longer hope for the Filipinos, we are a lost and dying breed, day by day being corrupted by those we elect in power. Which is true so true. Crime rates is soaring by the minute, when you watch the new you wont believe how desperate people are today.. This is the reason why i just close my eyes and pretend not to see or hear anything.. try to be oblivious as much as possible.. but i still see and i still hear... as i go home from work i pass by the mrt, in the stairs naked children lying down in the pavement, as i take a ride in jeepneys or fx, you have to look twice or trice on the passengers besides you to make sure you're safe, as you pass the busy streets, poverty screams right in front your eyes, as you go and receive your wage in the office, you see 10-15%of hard earned cash deducted from your wage but when you go out and go home not a single thing change around you, day by day, there's no more progress only deterioration. As years go by, family, love ones, friends, by the number decreases because all of them have lost hope and chooses to struggle in another land. Maybe that the reason, most of us no longer have hope, out hope lies in other countries, we see the green sign to go abroad we don't pause to hit the breaks. Because were all tired and hopeless. I know I am, Im still young and idealistic maybe that why i am still here, but when I'm already tired like most of us are, i know ill also leave, right now its already taking its toll, when you know you could earn more, when you know you could be safer, when you know your future could be more secure. One day like most Filipinos, I would stop caring, and i will leave, and look at the Philippines as just a sentimental place.